It’s Gotta Change


Jesus said to her, “Do not cling to Me, for I have not yet ascended to My Father; but go to My brethren and say to them, ‘I am ascending to My Father and your Father, and to My God and your God.’ ”. Mary Magdalene came and told the disciples that she had seen the Lord, and that He had spoken these things to her.”

John‬ ‭20:11-18‬ ‭NKJV‬‬

“DO NOT, BUT GO”


Jesus uses these words so often in both the Bible and in my personal walk with Him every day. I was thinking a lot this morning about how big of an impact these four little words have had on me personally and in all those the Lord councils if they allow Him.

Jesus will always start with telling you the behaviors and the feelings you are investing in that are not productive and have no purpose. If we allow Him to finish without getting upset, He will then go on to tell us the correct course of action to allow us to walk into our purpose and into His promises over our lives.

The more I thought about it, I realized that this really is like coaching at it’s finest. When pursuing a new sport, although we may be passionate about playing the game, it doesn’t mean we know how to play well just yet. It takes hard work to be good at anything new and even though we won’ t be MVP right away, if we are coach-able and willing to learn, eventually we will get there, Just like any good coach, God will tell us “no” or “do not” for reasons we can’t see just yet in order to better our performance. . He is the one with the knowledge we need to properly navigate through our situations. We, unfortunately,would rather skip practice and get to winning already. We are not interested in being coached by anyone. Instead, we look around desperately for cheerleaders in order to feel validated and reassured of abilities we think we already have.

When we are over confident in the conclusions we have made about ourselves, others, or our circumstances, hearing God say “no” or “do not” causes us to immediately attribute His answer to our personal inability or inadequacy. God can’t even finish speaking the “but go” into our circumstances, because we stopped listening at “do not”.

Due to our feeling rejected or insecure when things don’t go our way; we end up shutting down and backing away from things that challenge us instead of sticking them out long enough to hear the rest of what God has to say about the purpose of those challenges. Things that are uncomfortable or uncertain are a struggle and all struggles involve a certain level of suffering in order to have a purpose.


We never lose our purpose, but we often lose the proper outlet for it. When we can’t recognize glory in certain times or even people we once felt confident in, we lose our passion to push through the uncertainty to avoid failure. When you have the passion to pursue what’s important to you, you have to be willing to do whatever it takes, including failing a million times until you get it right.

If God requires us to suffer for a season, we must know that there is a purpose and eventually that season’s gotta change. When God is involved we know that all things work together for our good and regardless of our present pain, we know that joy comes in the end. If we are willing to be changed and passionate about making a change in this world, we need to be unshakable in our faith. We need to be open to moving away from the current season of weeping and start walking into the next season of witnessing.

Suffering is certain in any situation, but God will not allow us to suffer unless there is a purpose. He tells us “do not” for a reason. It is never about what you can’t do, it is always about what you will do if we do it His way. The right way.

God will never leave you with a “no” or “do not”. There will always be a “but go” , just not always on our terms. Know that God is faithful no matter your present pain. We may not be where we thought we would be, but faith in His promises requires us to keep walking even while we are weeping. The suffering is just a season and if we trust in God, we know that eventually it’s gotta change. He may pause you, but He will never stop you. We cannot have passion without suffering.


Walk on warriors. His ways are not our ways. Because you have been broken because you have been hurt, you have been qualified to go to the next level.

Erica D.


Painting The Roses Red


“As much as we thirst for approval we dread condemnation.” -Hans Selye

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God has really put it on my heart to write on the subject of honesty.

While witnessing to several people over this past month, I noticed that the majority of them seemed to share the same feelings of unworthiness and regret.

Worse however, they all seem to be in the same season of denial in regards to their situations.

In one way or another, each person had expressed to me that they were feeling lost. That they could not seem to find one glimmer of hope. Absent of faith and out of patience.

Immediately a familiar song, “Painting The Roses Red” , from Lewis Carroll’s Alice and Wonderland popped into my head.

(Click the link above to view lyrics)

Many people claim to be living a happy life, but in actuality they are only hiding behind the walls of what they believe happiness should look like to others.

If we are living only on the outside, but dying on the inside, that kind of suffering can only remain undetected for so long.

When we try to paint our hearts red (full of love, God, goodness and purpose) but can’t even feel them beating in our chests, we set ourselves up for inevitable damage.

When our lives become more like lies then we need to be aware that God eventually will expect us to reveal our true colors.

If we do not get honest with ourselves and others willingly, God will most definitely allow circumstances in our lives to do it for us.

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“The white rose is the symbol of purity and innocence. However, if everyone were to be a white rose, none would truly be white. We grow, we make mistakes, and who doesn’t bleed nor have a scar? Painting the roses red is our cycle of life in all it’s mystery.
Everyday of life is another day towards deaths arms…Are you living or dying?
Reality: Life is the ONLY most contradicting phenomena ever.
How good of a painter are you?”- Philosophy by MKR

James 4:6 – God shows favor to the humble and oppressed

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The reason our faith grows grey and our hearts lose their beat is not because God has forgotten about us or because we are not useful to Him any longer.

Faith fades when we suffocate our spirit and live to serve our flesh.

If we lose hope in God then that means we have put too much of it in the world.

We cannot be two shades of ourselves in this life. If we are on fire for God and trust in His plans for us, the embers of that fire should burn brightly for the world to see!

If we refuse to be the color God needs us to be in a black and white world, we cannot be surprised when we are left feeling dull, inadequate, or bored while others beautifully color the pages.

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“The absence of flaw in beauty is itself a flaw.” -Havelock Ellis

God knows your heart, your desires, and your priorities.

He created us all with beautiful flaws, each of us a unique shade of who He is, and collectively we are breathtaking by His design.

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“Lean too much on the approval of people, and it becomes a bed of thorns.” -Tehyi Hsieh

If your heart is hurting, don’t paint a coat of denial over it thinking nobody will notice.

God knows what is underneath.

Be sure you remain true to what’s right; remain true to the truth.

Short cuts to happiness will only leave you with short term happiness.

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“Our deepest fear is not that we are inadequate. Our deepest fear is that we are powerful beyond measure. It is our light, not our darkness, that frightens us most. We ask ourselves, ‘Who am I to be brilliant, gorgeous, talented, and famous?’ Actually, who are you not to be? You are a child of God. Your playing small does not serve the world. There is nothing enlightened about shrinking so that people won’t feel insecure around you. We were born to make manifest the glory of God that is within us. It’s not just in some of us; it’s in all of us. And when we let our own light shine, we unconsciously give other people permission to do the same. As we are liberated from our own fear, our presence automatically liberates others.” -Maryanne Williamson

Do your best to present yourself to God as one approved, a worker who does not need to be ashamed and who correctly handles the word of truth. – 2 Timothy 2:15 (NIV)