Faithfully Flawed


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“Adaptability is not imitation. It means power of resistance and assimilation.” -Mahatma Gandhi

Dear God,

The pain of the world is causing my pain.
The attacks of the enemy are making people act insane.
I do not regret the cause of my scars.
For the ways that you have trained me.
They are such a small price to pay considering You actually spared me.
Your hands are a reminder and your feet once tired like mine.
A body can easily be broken, but the spirit does not fear time.
We are beat up,we are fed up, we are caught up, we’re flawed.
Yet you stay right beside us, You guide us, You even beg to be our God.

The Sovereign Lord is my strength!
He makes me as surefooted as a deer,
able to tread upon the heights
(Habakkuk 3:19)

When I was caged in the darkness, when hope was far away and when the light seemed uninterested.
You reached for me, took hold of me and then Your plan manifested.

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“The absence of flaw in beauty is itself a flaw.” -Havelock Ellis

We act like children on a ferris wheel, around and around we go.
We like to lose ourselves to the world so quickly, but when it comes to walking with You we’ve never been so slow! !
Addicted, conflicted, almost admitted, I have always been flawed.
Yet You pick up my heart everytime I seem to drop it to show me You’re still my God.

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You are so much more than we can know and most of us are afraid.
That despite the sacrifice You made for our sake, the promise never was made.

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Father forgive us, some of us know just what we do.
Some of us would rather die slowly instead of live for You.
The enemy waits in the shadows and preys on the unarmed.
He drowns the naive in his rivers of nonsense and most do not even realize they are being harmed.
Jesus, I am selfish, self absorbed, and can never find my phone.
I may be jaded, but with You I am never alone.

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You say I am a beautiful disaster, that we all are, and we were born to be flawed.
Why can’t we humble ourselves and realize You alone are God?

The enemy is a faker, but if he keeps fooling Your people, the joke is our eternity.
Please give me the strength to be the woman You need me to be.
To be a lamp,a hope, and the proof that although we are flawed,
That You will forever love us, eternally fight for us, and that there is a reason why You alone are our God.

Faithfully Flawed,
Erica D.

“Adaptability: A wise man adapts himself to circumstances as water shapes itself to the vessel that contains it.” -Unknown

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I Know You Are But What Am I?


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Therefore you have no excuse, O man, every one of you who judges. For  in passing judgment on another you condemn yourself, because you, the judge, practice the very same things. We know that the judgment of God rightly falls on those who practice such things. Do you suppose, O man – you who judge those who practice such things and yet do them yourself – that you will escape the judgment of God? – Romans 2:1-3

Don’t Pass Judgement E-Bible

Mere C.S. Lewis: Judgement in the Psalms

One of the most powerful weapons of destruction in today’s world is judgement of others. It has the power to take lives, shatter dreams, and end relationships. It has the ability to cause anxiety, depression, and self loathing. The unfortunate part is that it is preventable and most always unnecessary. Pride is judgement’s best friend and together they are the enemy’s dynamic duo used to rob you of God’s goodness. What we think about people does not make it true. What people say about us is just as unreliable. When we learn to silence our ego we learn to hear God. God is the truth and when He speaks the lies of the enemy are forced to flee. You are not to be concerned with the petty projections of people. God is for you so who cares who is against you??

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People underestimate the impact of their decisions when it comes to the things they say and do. One glance in a critical way at someone suffering inside can lead to them taking their life. One disrespectful remark to someone at their wits end can provoke violence. It is the thoughtlessness of the one who is always “thinking” things about everyone else that seems to be the latest weapon of choice. More and more we are seeing people who, in their own selfish quest for acceptance, sabotage their neighbor’s shot at it. People who believe they are advocates for God, but actually turning people against Him with picket signs, bad attitudes, and whispers in the back row at church.

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Why anyone would believe that their judgment of others is either required or acceptable in any denomination is beyond me, but never the less,  there are a growing number of people who seem to think otherwise.

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We all have faults. We all have made mistakes and we all have things in our lives we need to work on. We are not any better than anyone else no matter how much we would like to believe so. I have a steady following of “haters” and always have. I can bet anyone reading this has also been on the receiving end of undeserved disapproval at some point in their life. It is awful when you try to be the best you can yet be treated as if you were the exact opposite. It is very discouraging to be the only good thing about a bad person’s gossip. It is a challenge to stay true to your faith when someone is trying desperately to convince you that you have none.

God has already told us that we will be tried and tested by the world and that as followers of Jesus, we will share in His sufferings as He did. He has also made it very clear that He is the only judge and He is our safety from the sad games people play to make us think we are unworthy of His love and grace.

His love for us is not dictated by others. It is not conditional or containable. It is beyond our understanding and it is available to everyone that searches for it. His judgement  is very much coming. His account of our lives is what will ultimately seal our salvation. Do not waste your blessings by breaking people down to build your ego up. Love others and love God. It is that simple.

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I know that it is tough to maneuver through this life when people, possessions, and power are used by the enemy daily to grab at your feet, but the Lord is with those that allow Him to be. He will always deliver you from your trial and He will always carry you over the things that try to stop you from being who He created you to be. Do not let people fool you into thinking unholy acts are the way to being holy. God will hold those that hurt in His name accountable just like He will all of us. Live life like you mean it. Treat everyone with love because you believe it! Life is tough, but God is enough.

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Pride and Prejudice


“A competitor will find a way to win. Competitors take bad breaks and use them to drive themselves just that much harder. Quitters take bad breaks and use them as reasons to give up. It’s all a matter of pride.” -Nancy Lopez

Prejudice-Defined

There is nothing worse than finding out one of your best friends has been in cahoots with the enemy. The icky feeling just thinking about betrayal and back stabbing just will not subside. I have been trying to piece this mystery together the past couple days and it has not been easy.

I have really had to put my pride to the side and think about why in the world a friend of mine would choose people who have been malicious to me in the past over me in the present. The hurt has kept me up at night and the anger has not allowed me to rest much either. Supposedly these people have come to my friend’s aid in times of need and therefore I should be somewhat accepting of their new alliance. I was dooped out of employment by one of these knights in shining armor and in constant turmoil when working by the other. Now both have managed to slither their way into one of my closest friends good graces and I have been completely pushed out of the scenario.

Luckily for me, I have God and His Word to knock some sense into my pounding head. If I allow myself to feel jealous, angry, or betrayed I am in turn giving the enemy and these people exactly what they want. If I allow my pride and prejudice to fade then I am able to see the situation clearly and take a deep breath of relief.

Every word of God is pure; He is a shield to those who put their trust in Him.Do not add to His words, Lest He rebuke you, and you be found a liar (Proverbs 30:5 – 30:6 NKJV)

I am not concerned with petty disputes or re hashing past hurts. I am not interested in going backwards into the trap of who I was or where I have come from. All of these people reside in the part of my life I have outgrown and happily left behind. I must admit it was not easy to let it go, but now that I have I cannot keep from laughing about the whole thing! So silly, pride.

You see, it does not matter what you feel about people or situations like this. Facts speak for themselves. Be true to truth and you are real. Give in to the fake and you become part of the lie. If you find a few false in the path of your truth, keep moving. They may present themselves for a fading moment, but your light will remove the shadows they temporarily cast in the long run.

God is so very real and He is the best friend anyone can have. He will not change His mind about the worth of your friendship. He will not flip a switch on and off when it comes to respecting you. He is all the time, all about you.
Pride will destroy the most important relationship you have with yourself and cause prejudice inside of your own heart. Do not waste precious moments on petty nonsense. People try very hard to get you to quit, but God effortlessly prevents that from happening when you listen!
Be happy, be bright, be you! When a liar tells a fib do not lie. When a snake enters the room simply smile as it slithers by. Time will reveal the truth you feel. Haters were meant to lurk at your heel.

“There is a set of harmless liars, frequently to be met with in company, who deal much in the marvellous. Their usual intention is to please and entertain; but as men are most delighted with what they conceive to be the truth, these people mistake the means of pleasing, and incur universal blame.” -David Hume

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