Saying I’m Sorry: Relentless Repentance


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“Let us be very gentle with our neighbors’ failings, and forgive our friends their debts as we hope ourselves to be forgiven.” -William Makepeace Thackeray

The song featured below, Luck by American Authors, beautifully expresses the art of saying I am sorry.
Personally, the lyrics hit so close to home in regards to my testimony that I wanted to share them with all of you!

When I finally accepted accountability for my horrible behavior as an addict, the next step of recovery was to try and rectify the relationships I had destroyed because of my actions.
I was awful to my family, my friends, myself and to God.
I had so much to apologize for and for the first time in a long time, I sincerely sought to be forgiven.
Unfortunately, some things cannot be repaired after so much damage has been done, but that has not stopped me from relentless repentance.
We are not always forgiven by the people we have done harm to, but by grace we are always forgiven when seeking God’s forgiveness.

Although my days of destruction and addiction are over, I now make it a priority to tell God I am sorry when I am wrong every single day.

Please listen to this inspiring song to get more of a glimpse of how I said I’m sorry then, why I say I’m sorry now, and why I am forgiven by God forever!
I have provided the lyrics for you to read!
God bless you all and be forgiven! Say your sorry and mean it! That’s all it takes.

I will feed My flock, and I will make them lie down,” says the Lord GOD. “I will seek what was lost and bring back what was driven away, bind up the broken and strengthen what was sick; but I will destroy the fat and the strong, and “I will seek what was lost and bring back what was driven away, bind up the broken and strengthen what was sick; but I will destroy the fat and the strong, and feed them in judgment.” (Ezekiel 34:15-16 NKJV)

LUCK– lyrics by
American Authors

How can we make amends when we said all we said?
I call and you don’t pick up
How can I say instead that I hope it’s for the best?
I won’t, and I won’t give up

I’m sorry, Mother
I know I let you down
I’m sorry for how I up and left this town

How can we push aside all the bad and make it right
Now you got me all choked up
I’m sorry, brother
I know I let you down
I’m sorry for how I up and left this town
Please just listen cause I don’t ask for much
I am my own man
I make my own luck

How can we both pick sides when we know nothing’s right?
Open up the door that’s shut
How can I have my pride and drink away my soul tonight?
Sorrow’s filling up my cup

I’m sorry, Father
I know I let you down
I’m sorry for how I up and left this town
Please just listen cause I don’t ask for much
I am my own man
I make my own luck

Well some birds aren’t meant to be caged
And I just can’t see the light of day

Please forgive me
I can’t remember
Please forgive me
no one is calling
Please forgive me
I can’t believe it
No…

Gonna pick myself up, so I don’t let this ever grow
Even if I mess up, I won’t let this ever go
It’s hard to stay
It’s hard to stay
Cause some birds aren’t meant to be caged

How can I set us free?
I’m what you taught me to be
Shouldn’t that be enough?
It’s time that we make amends
Let’s forget the things we said
You know we were all just talk

I’m sorry, Mother
I know I let you down
I’m sorry, Father
I didn’t stick around
Please just listen cause I don’t ask for much

Pride and Prejudice


“A competitor will find a way to win. Competitors take bad breaks and use them to drive themselves just that much harder. Quitters take bad breaks and use them as reasons to give up. It’s all a matter of pride.” -Nancy Lopez

Prejudice-Defined

There is nothing worse than finding out one of your best friends has been in cahoots with the enemy. The icky feeling just thinking about betrayal and back stabbing just will not subside. I have been trying to piece this mystery together the past couple days and it has not been easy.

I have really had to put my pride to the side and think about why in the world a friend of mine would choose people who have been malicious to me in the past over me in the present. The hurt has kept me up at night and the anger has not allowed me to rest much either. Supposedly these people have come to my friend’s aid in times of need and therefore I should be somewhat accepting of their new alliance. I was dooped out of employment by one of these knights in shining armor and in constant turmoil when working by the other. Now both have managed to slither their way into one of my closest friends good graces and I have been completely pushed out of the scenario.

Luckily for me, I have God and His Word to knock some sense into my pounding head. If I allow myself to feel jealous, angry, or betrayed I am in turn giving the enemy and these people exactly what they want. If I allow my pride and prejudice to fade then I am able to see the situation clearly and take a deep breath of relief.

Every word of God is pure; He is a shield to those who put their trust in Him.Do not add to His words, Lest He rebuke you, and you be found a liar (Proverbs 30:5 – 30:6 NKJV)

I am not concerned with petty disputes or re hashing past hurts. I am not interested in going backwards into the trap of who I was or where I have come from. All of these people reside in the part of my life I have outgrown and happily left behind. I must admit it was not easy to let it go, but now that I have I cannot keep from laughing about the whole thing! So silly, pride.

You see, it does not matter what you feel about people or situations like this. Facts speak for themselves. Be true to truth and you are real. Give in to the fake and you become part of the lie. If you find a few false in the path of your truth, keep moving. They may present themselves for a fading moment, but your light will remove the shadows they temporarily cast in the long run.

God is so very real and He is the best friend anyone can have. He will not change His mind about the worth of your friendship. He will not flip a switch on and off when it comes to respecting you. He is all the time, all about you.
Pride will destroy the most important relationship you have with yourself and cause prejudice inside of your own heart. Do not waste precious moments on petty nonsense. People try very hard to get you to quit, but God effortlessly prevents that from happening when you listen!
Be happy, be bright, be you! When a liar tells a fib do not lie. When a snake enters the room simply smile as it slithers by. Time will reveal the truth you feel. Haters were meant to lurk at your heel.

“There is a set of harmless liars, frequently to be met with in company, who deal much in the marvellous. Their usual intention is to please and entertain; but as men are most delighted with what they conceive to be the truth, these people mistake the means of pleasing, and incur universal blame.” -David Hume

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