Saying I’m Sorry: Relentless Repentance


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“Let us be very gentle with our neighbors’ failings, and forgive our friends their debts as we hope ourselves to be forgiven.” -William Makepeace Thackeray

The song featured below, Luck by American Authors, beautifully expresses the art of saying I am sorry.
Personally, the lyrics hit so close to home in regards to my testimony that I wanted to share them with all of you!

When I finally accepted accountability for my horrible behavior as an addict, the next step of recovery was to try and rectify the relationships I had destroyed because of my actions.
I was awful to my family, my friends, myself and to God.
I had so much to apologize for and for the first time in a long time, I sincerely sought to be forgiven.
Unfortunately, some things cannot be repaired after so much damage has been done, but that has not stopped me from relentless repentance.
We are not always forgiven by the people we have done harm to, but by grace we are always forgiven when seeking God’s forgiveness.

Although my days of destruction and addiction are over, I now make it a priority to tell God I am sorry when I am wrong every single day.

Please listen to this inspiring song to get more of a glimpse of how I said I’m sorry then, why I say I’m sorry now, and why I am forgiven by God forever!
I have provided the lyrics for you to read!
God bless you all and be forgiven! Say your sorry and mean it! That’s all it takes.

I will feed My flock, and I will make them lie down,” says the Lord GOD. “I will seek what was lost and bring back what was driven away, bind up the broken and strengthen what was sick; but I will destroy the fat and the strong, and “I will seek what was lost and bring back what was driven away, bind up the broken and strengthen what was sick; but I will destroy the fat and the strong, and feed them in judgment.” (Ezekiel 34:15-16 NKJV)

LUCK– lyrics by
American Authors

How can we make amends when we said all we said?
I call and you don’t pick up
How can I say instead that I hope it’s for the best?
I won’t, and I won’t give up

I’m sorry, Mother
I know I let you down
I’m sorry for how I up and left this town

How can we push aside all the bad and make it right
Now you got me all choked up
I’m sorry, brother
I know I let you down
I’m sorry for how I up and left this town
Please just listen cause I don’t ask for much
I am my own man
I make my own luck

How can we both pick sides when we know nothing’s right?
Open up the door that’s shut
How can I have my pride and drink away my soul tonight?
Sorrow’s filling up my cup

I’m sorry, Father
I know I let you down
I’m sorry for how I up and left this town
Please just listen cause I don’t ask for much
I am my own man
I make my own luck

Well some birds aren’t meant to be caged
And I just can’t see the light of day

Please forgive me
I can’t remember
Please forgive me
no one is calling
Please forgive me
I can’t believe it
No…

Gonna pick myself up, so I don’t let this ever grow
Even if I mess up, I won’t let this ever go
It’s hard to stay
It’s hard to stay
Cause some birds aren’t meant to be caged

How can I set us free?
I’m what you taught me to be
Shouldn’t that be enough?
It’s time that we make amends
Let’s forget the things we said
You know we were all just talk

I’m sorry, Mother
I know I let you down
I’m sorry, Father
I didn’t stick around
Please just listen cause I don’t ask for much

No Fear


Join me live this Sunday, 6/8/14, at 3:30pm PST for an all episode of new My Message Radio!
This week’s show will surround the topic of overcoming fear, anxiety, insecurity, and overthinking in terms of romantic relationships.
Host, Erica DiCarlo, will be reading her post A Truth, A Reminder, A Victory from her blog My Message and taking live calls in the studio at 646-595-3870
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Lori Sheridan: More Than Just My Mother


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“A mother is not a person to lean on but a person to make leaning unnecessary.” -Dorothy Canfield Fisher

Many times I have felt motivated to write to my mother and tell her all the things I have tucked away in my heart in regards to my love for her.
Days turn in to months, opportunities to sit and begin writing turn in to bittersweet busyness, and all the while the constant admiration I wish to express to her remains waiting to be shared.

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This Mother’s Day, I have quieted the chatter of my mind and the clanging of the rest of the world in order to finally let my mother know exactly how much I love and admire her.
Although I have made many mistakes in the past which have caused her to be disappointed in me, I continually pray that my mom is aware of the woman I have become because of those mistakes and that she is proud of the woman I am today.

“I thank God for my handicaps, for, through them, I have found myself, my work, and my God.” -Helen Keller

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“Family love is messy, clinging, and of an annoying and repetitive pattern, like bad wallpaper.” -Friedrich Nietzsche

Mom,
Thank you for all of the things, both privately and publicly, that you have suffered because of me.
Thank you for being the strong woman you are and for not allowing the things that I put you though to break your beautiful spirit.
My mess of a past has become my Message of hope to other families broken by the selfishness of addiction and that message, this message, has reached 130 counties in my attempts to help them avoid the heartache I caused you and our family myself.

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“A child’s hand in yours-what tenderness it arouses, what power it conjures. You are instantly the very touchstone of wisdom and strength.” -Marjorie Holmes

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“A father may turn his back on his child, brothers and sisters may become inveterate enemies, husbands may desert their wives, wives their husbands. But a mother’s love endures through all; in good repute, in bad repute, in the face of the world’s condemnation, a mother still loves on, and still hopes that her child may turn from his evil ways, and repent; still she remembers the infant smiles that once filled her bosom with rapture, the merry laugh, the joyful shout of his childhood, the opening promise of his youth; and she can never be brought to think him all unworthy.” -Washington Irving

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You are a leader; You envelope all of what I could possibly hope to become as a woman. As a mother, you have fearlessly done and continue to do whatever it takes to ensure the very best for your daughters and their future.

You are fierce, but you are kind.
You are beautiful, but you are not a fool.
You are helpful, but you do not enable.
You are unyielding, but you are human.
You stand tall in the face of chaos, but you do not welcome a mess.
You are smarter than any woman I know, but your heart rules your world.

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“Of course if you like your kids, if you love them from the moment they begin, you yourself begin all over again, in them, with them, and so there is something more to the world again.” -William Saroyan

Nana gave the world the greatest gift when she had you; You are very precious to me.
She instilled in you the values and the characteristics which have made you the exemplary woman and mother you are and you continue to do the same in the raising of your own girls!

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“A mother is a person who seeing there are only four pieces of pie for five people, promptly announces she never did care for pie.” -Tenneva Jordan

I love you very much and no matter how bratty I am, how long it sometimes takes me to say it, you are my hero.
Happy Mothers Day and THANK YOU FOR BEING MY MOM.

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The Meaning Behind The Mean


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We are all tired. We are all in the same war fighting different battles. We are all fragile. There is nothing that is right about a world that is filled with so much that is wrong.
The reason people are mean is because they are mad. They are mad because they are tired. They are tired because they are hurt. They are hurt because someone else was mean, the world is mean, and this life is mean.
Next time someone is mean to you think that far back into the reason instead of assuming it is about you.
Treat the problem with the proper medicine and healing begins. Kindness, compassion, humility and the Holy Spirit can lead all the broken to the healer if we allow ourselves to step out of the vicious cycle of defeat.
Jesus is the only One who can cure the disease mankind spreads to one another daily. He is the only peace that can calm the chaos this world creates on the daily. He is the only truth in world that lies.
Don’t run from the adversity in your life. Run at it. Don’t turn your back on those who hurt you, but give them back to the One who can help them and you

In All Seasons


We worry, fear, stress, and feel alone. If we are in the hands of God, creator of Heaven and Earth, why then wouldn’t we trust He knows our needs?

God loves us so very much, we are included His workmanship.

Next time you feel like you have no purpose, consider the One who gave you one. Consider the power, the wisdom, and love of God. He is always the same, never changing. Although we may change, our circumstances may change, and as the seasons change, God orchestrated it all from the beginning. We need to trust Him not our own understanding.

We may be small, but our God is bigger than our problems!

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Then God said, “Let there be light”; and there was light. And God saw the light, that it was good; and God divided the light from the darkness. God called the light Day, and the darkness He called Night. So the evening and the morning were the first day. (Genesis 1:5 NKJV)

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Now to Him who is able to do exceedingly abundantly above all that we ask or think, according to the power that works in us, to Him be glory in the church by Christ Jesus to all generations, forever and ever. Amen (Ephesians 3:20 – 3:21 NKJV)

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Something Sweet


IN MEMORY OF SHIRLEY TEMPLE i AM RE BLOGGING MY POST FROM SEPT 2012 FEATURING THE VIDEO OF GOOD SHIP LOLLYPOP!
GOD BLESS

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“Eventually you will come to understand that love heals everything, and love is all there is.” -Gary Zukav

Tootsie Pops

What makes you smile?
What takes it all away awhile?
Kids are obsessed with it and they cry if deprived,
The stuff that makes you feel you’re alive.
Is it in a wrapper? Is it in a box?
Can you buy it or if too much of it requires detox?
Is it in the frozen food isle or at the end of the street?
Does the rush we feel in our lives come from the stuff we eat?!
O.C.E.A.N Personality TestFaith is not frozen, hope is never sold,
God did not intend the sweetness we crave to expire when it’s old.
Think of the way chocolate makes your worst mood lighten.
The way candy makes your declining energy heighten.
These things we associate with the words rich and savory.

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The Harvest


It is so very important for us to remember who we are and why are here. Many people are so lost and unable to see that we are not here by accident or for no reason at all. We are part of God’s very powerful, very purposeful and very real design.

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The people who walked in darkness Have seen a great light; Those who dwelt in the land of the shadow of death, Upon them a light has shined.You have multiplied the nation And increased its joy; They rejoice before You According to the joy of harvest, As men rejoice when they divide the spoil.

For You have broken the yoke of his burden And the staff of his shoulder, The rod of his oppressor, As in the day of Midian. For every warrior’s sandal from the noisy battle, And garments rolled in blood,  Will be used for burning and fuel of fire.

For unto us a Child is born, Unto us a Son is given; And the government will be upon His shoulder. And His name will be called Wonderful, Counselor, Mighty God, Everlasting Father, Prince of Peace.

Of the increase of His government and peace There will be no end, Upon the throne of David and over His kingdom, To order it and establish it with judgment and justice From that time forward, even forever. The zeal of the LORD of hosts will perform this.

(Isaiah 9:2-7)

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Just as the farmer sows seeds,  tends to his crops with care, and in time reaps  a bountiful harvest, our time here should be taken very seriously.
God has placed us here to tend to the work of Lord who is the Lord of the Harvest.

As we go through the various seasons of our lives we can rest easy knowing that He has given us the promise of reaping an eternal reward for our efforts in the Lord’s absence and in His Name. We all have a place in service for Him, we all have the opportunity to partake in the harvest, but there are many people who will refuse to work.

We are each seeds planted here by God:

We are to nourish ourselves with the Word, grow in our faith and spiritual maturity in order to  bear the fruits of the Spirit. Like the seasons of the year to the seed, our lives should  repetitively consist of  growing, maturing, enduring, and bearing fruit in Jesus Name.

MAKE EVERY DAY COUNT!

DON’T WASTE YOUR TIME OR TAKE IT FOR GRANTED

THE ONES WHO ARE IN THE FIELD WILL PARTAKE IN THE FEAST WHEN IT IS TIME FOR THE HARVEST. THE ONES WHO REFUSE TO WORK WILL BE LEFT WITH NOTHING TO EAT

-BRANDON HEATH- THE HARVESTER

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“But when He was alone, those around Him with the twelve asked Him about the parable. And He said to them, “To you it has been given to know the mystery of the kingdom of God; but to those who are outside, all things come in parables,

“so that ‘Seeing they may see and not perceive, And hearing they may hear and not understand; Lest they should turn, And their sins be forgiven them.’ “

And He said to them, “Do you not understand this parable? How then will you understand all the parables? “

The sower sows the word. “And these are the ones by the wayside where the word is sown. When they hear, Satan comes immediately and takes away the word that was sown in their hearts.

“These likewise are the ones sown on stony ground who, when they hear the word, immediately receive it with gladness; and they have no root in themselves, and so endure only for a time. Afterward, when tribulation or persecution arises for the word’s sake, immediately they stumble.

Now these are the ones sown among thorns; they are the ones who hear the word, and the cares of this world, the deceitfulness of riches, and the desires for other things entering in choke the word, and it becomes unfruitful. But these are the ones sown on good ground, those who hear the word, accept it, and bear fruit: some thirtyfold, some sixty, and some a hundred.”

(Mark 4:10-20)

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Cabbages and Kings


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I have been a fan of Author, Lewis Carroll my entire life. In fact, his work has played a major part in my wanting to become a writer myself.
Lewis Carroll not only captivates his readers, but also literally takes them captive through his use of mind twisting allegory and his play on words.

Jesus, much like the poems and writings of Carroll, also used parables as means of ministering to groups of people because it made His teachings easier for them to understand. Ironically, many fail to see the meaning behind the story and only take away from the lesson just that… A story.

Behind every fable there is a fact.
Behind every parable there is a point.
I thought it would be interesting to demonstrate how, if we learn to read beyond the words we read or hear, we
can find invaluable wisdom and moral guidance.

Many do not know the very real story behind Lewis Carroll’s Alice In Wonderland. Many do not know his personal connection to each character and in turn they see it merely as a children’s book.

The Walrus And The Carpenter brilliantly shows us the heart of the arrogant man and the nativity of the innocent. It warns us not to trust what man says and what happens when we follow our own advice.

God will never tempt you away from safety and allow the wilderness to devour you. The enemy on the other hand will lead you right into his dining room and have you as his main course!

Do not be arrogant. Do not follow fools.
Seek God in all situations. Let the Bible be your tool.

Man thinks he has it all, but without God he has nothing. No king, president, or ruler can ever eradicate sickness or suffering, yet God willingly does so.

God is the sovereign ruler of the universe and His kingdom shall reign forever. Don’t build castles in the sand and expect them to stand.
God is God. Man is just man.

THE WALRUS AND THE CARPENTER

Tweedle Dum:
The sun was shining on the sea
Shining with all his might

Tweedle Dee:
He did his very best to make
The billows smooth and bright

Tweedle Dum:
And this was odd because it was

Both: The middle of the night

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Tweedle Dee:
The Walrus and the Carpenter
Were walking close at hand

Tweedle Dum:
The beach was wide
From side to side
But much too full of sand

Carpenter:
Mr. Walrus!

Tweedle Dee:
Said the Carpenter

Carpenter:
My brain begins to perk
We’ll sweep this clear
In ‘alf a year
If you don’t mind the work

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Walrus: Work?!
The time has come…

Tweedle Dee: The Walrus said

Walrus:
To talk of other things
Of shoes and ships and sealing wax
Of cabbages and kings
And why the sea is boiling hot
And whether pigs have wings
Calloo-Callay
No work today!
We’re cabbages and kings

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Oh, uh, Oysters, come and walk with us
The day is warm and bright
A pleasant walk
A pleasant talk
Would be a sheer delight

Carpenter:
Yes, should we get hungry on the way
We’ll stop and, uh, have a bite

Walrus: Ahem!

Tweedle Dum:
But Mother Oyster winked her eye
And shook her heavy head
She knew too well this was no time
To leave her Oyster bed

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Mother Oyster:
The sea is nice,
Take my advice
And stay right here

Tweedle Dee:
Mum said

Walrus: Yes, yes, of course, of course, but, uh, ha, ha!
The time has come, my little friends
To talk of other things
Of shoes and ships and sealing wax
Cabbages and kings
And why the sea is boiling hot
And whether pigs have wings, ha ha
Callo-Callay
Come, run away
With cabbages and kings!

Well, now, uh, let me see
Ah, a loaf of bread is what we chiefly need!

Carpenter:
Listen, how ’bout some pepper and salt and vinegar, eh?

Walrus:
Well, yes, yes, splendid idea, ha ha!
Very good, indeed
Now, if you’re ready, Oysters, dear
We can begin the feed

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Oysters: Feed??!

Walrus: Oh, yes…
The time has come, my little friends
To talk of food and things

Carpenter:
Of peppercorns and mustard seeds
And other seasonings!
We’ll mix ’em all together
In a sauce that’s fit for kings
Calloo-Callay
We’ll eat today
Like cabbages and kings!

Walrus: I, uh…
I, I weep for you. I (hic), oh excuse me
I deeply sympathize
For I’ve enjoyed your company, oh much more
Than you realize

Carpenter:
Little Oysters? Little Oysters?

Tweedle Dee:
But answer, there came none

Tweedle Dum:
And this was scarcely odd because

Both:
They’d been eaten
Every one!

Walrus: Hm… Well, uh… Ha, ha. Ha, ha. Ha, ha. Ahem, uh… The time has come!

Tweedle Dee and Dum: With cabbages and kings!

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The War of Winter


“Maturity is: The ability to stick with a job until it’s finished; The ability to do a job without being supervised; The ability to carry money without spending it; and The ability to bear an injustice without wanting to get even.” -Abigail Van Buren

When the path grows dark and the wind blows cold,
when our bodies ache and we feel so old.
When our way is lost and we begin to fear,
when we want to just give up and run right out of here.
When we can’t find the strength to keep walking,
when the tears burn our eyes.
When we pray for a way out of our trials,
when Jesus hears our cries.

O God, You have taught me from my youth;
And to this day I declare Your wondrous works. Now also when I am old and grayheaded,
O God, do not forsake me,
Until I declare Your strength to this generation,
Your power to everyone who is to come. Also Your righteousness, O God, is  very high,
You who have done great things;
O God, who is like You?  You, who have shown me great and severe troubles,
Shall revive me again,
And bring me up again from the depths of the earth. You shall increase my greatness,
And comfort me on every sides (Psalms 71:17-21)

Blessed be the God and Father of our Lord Jesus Christ, who according to His abundant mercy has begotten us again to a living hope through the resurrection of Jesus Christ from the dead, to an inheritance incorruptible and undefiled and that does not fade away, reserved in heaven for you, who are kept by the power of God through faith for salvation ready to be revealed in the last time. In this you greatly rejoice, though now for a little while, if need be, you have been grieved by various trials, that the genuineness of your faith, being much more precious than gold that perishes, though it is tested by fire, may be found to praise, honor, and glory at the revelation of Jesus Christ,whom having not seen you love. Though now you do not see Him, yet believing, you rejoice with joy inexpressible and full of glory, receiving the end of your faith – the salvation of your souls. (1 Peter 1:3-6)

 

“They who sing through the summer must dance in the winter.” -Unknown

 

When winter surrounds you,

when you  are longing for spring.

When you feel like it is hopeless,

when you’ve lost everything.

God sees you in this season,

 He knows what you need to grow.

God loves you for this reason,

He is teaching you things you did not know.

 

We have to trust the Lord at all times, even during the war of winter in our lives.

We will be victorious in all battles and in all seasons.

Keep walking, you will get there. In God’s timing.

“No winter lasts forever; no spring skips its turn.” -Hal Borland

A Silent Film


Be still, and know that I am God;
I will be exalted among the nations,
I will be exalted in the earth!
(Psalm 46:10 NKJV)

So many times we think we must say or do things in order to understand or hear God’s voice.

Silence is often the most effective means of both hearing and worshiping our Creator and simply observing nature in itself boldly testifies to His love and tender care for what He has created, ourselves included.

In a non stop world sometimes it’s necessary to JUST STOP. Let God show you who He is.

The video below plays a huge part in this message so I encourage you to stop, listen, and allow God to show you.

“Think not thy love to God merits God’s love to thee; His acceptance of thy duty crowns His own gifts in thee; man’s love to God is nothing but a faint reflection of God’s love to man.” -Francis Quarles

“My heart resembles the ocean; has storm, and ebb and flow; and many a beautiful pearl lies hid in its depths below.” -Heinrich Heine

“Say well or be still.” -Unknown

“The slender capacity of man’s heart cannot comprehend, much less utter, that unsearchable depth and burning zeal of God’s love towards us.” -Martin Luther