Faithfully Flawed


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“Adaptability is not imitation. It means power of resistance and assimilation.” -Mahatma Gandhi

Dear God,

The pain of the world is causing my pain.
The attacks of the enemy are making people act insane.
I do not regret the cause of my scars.
For the ways that you have trained me.
They are such a small price to pay considering You actually spared me.
Your hands are a reminder and your feet once tired like mine.
A body can easily be broken, but the spirit does not fear time.
We are beat up,we are fed up, we are caught up, we’re flawed.
Yet you stay right beside us, You guide us, You even beg to be our God.

The Sovereign Lord is my strength!
He makes me as surefooted as a deer,
able to tread upon the heights
(Habakkuk 3:19)

When I was caged in the darkness, when hope was far away and when the light seemed uninterested.
You reached for me, took hold of me and then Your plan manifested.

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“The absence of flaw in beauty is itself a flaw.” -Havelock Ellis

We act like children on a ferris wheel, around and around we go.
We like to lose ourselves to the world so quickly, but when it comes to walking with You we’ve never been so slow! !
Addicted, conflicted, almost admitted, I have always been flawed.
Yet You pick up my heart everytime I seem to drop it to show me You’re still my God.

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You are so much more than we can know and most of us are afraid.
That despite the sacrifice You made for our sake, the promise never was made.

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Father forgive us, some of us know just what we do.
Some of us would rather die slowly instead of live for You.
The enemy waits in the shadows and preys on the unarmed.
He drowns the naive in his rivers of nonsense and most do not even realize they are being harmed.
Jesus, I am selfish, self absorbed, and can never find my phone.
I may be jaded, but with You I am never alone.

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You say I am a beautiful disaster, that we all are, and we were born to be flawed.
Why can’t we humble ourselves and realize You alone are God?

The enemy is a faker, but if he keeps fooling Your people, the joke is our eternity.
Please give me the strength to be the woman You need me to be.
To be a lamp,a hope, and the proof that although we are flawed,
That You will forever love us, eternally fight for us, and that there is a reason why You alone are our God.

Faithfully Flawed,
Erica D.

“Adaptability: A wise man adapts himself to circumstances as water shapes itself to the vessel that contains it.” -Unknown

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House Of Cards


“It’s like gambling somehow. You go out for a night of drinking and you don’t know where your going to end up the next day. It could work out good or it could be disastrous. It’s like the throw of the dice.” -Jim Morrison

I remember bright lights and the smell of stale smoke,
I remember the noise of the casino and thinking life was a joke.
Drugs in my veins and the taste of vodka on my lips,
The devil had me right at his fingertips.

Always was with a man and had cards in my hand,
I was terribly naive then.
I was gambling with my very own life and losing big time to sin.
One more drink, one more hit, one more time the enemy pleaded,
Dangling my sanity right in front of me and saying this is what I needed.

“In all things there are three choices: Yes, No and no choice, except in this — I either choose the truth or I am deceit.” -Unknown

“As in the rankest soil the most beautiful flowers are grown, so in the dark soil of poverty the choicest flowers of humanity have developed and bloomed.” -James Allen

I wanted so badly just to hear God’s voice,
Instead drugs had silenced Him and it was me who made that choice.

“Now listen! Today I am giving you a choice between life and death, between prosperity and disaster. (Deuteronomy 30:15 NLT)

God, He never left me…
Not even once did He let me go.
Even when I made it clear that away from Him is where I’d rather go.

It was 8 years ago when I chose to surrender my life to Lord completely,
Stories like these are only part of my testimony.
I have never left Him again,
Not even once have I let Him go.
I have made it my life’s work to make sure others know.
There is a way through the muck and the miles,
A relief from the suffering that robs our smiles.
Choose wisely and you will avoid these scars,
Collapse is inevitable when building your house of cards.

This is the message we heard from Jesus and now declare to you: God is light, and there is no darkness in him at all. So we are lying if we say we have fellowship with God but go on living in spiritual darkness; we are not practicing the truth (1 John 1:5 – 1:6 NLT)

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