Painting The Roses Red


“As much as we thirst for approval we dread condemnation.” -Hans Selye

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God has really put it on my heart to write on the subject of honesty.

While witnessing to several people over this past month, I noticed that the majority of them seemed to share the same feelings of unworthiness and regret.

Worse however, they all seem to be in the same season of denial in regards to their situations.

In one way or another, each person had expressed to me that they were feeling lost. That they could not seem to find one glimmer of hope. Absent of faith and out of patience.

Immediately a familiar song, “Painting The Roses Red” , from Lewis Carroll’s Alice and Wonderland popped into my head.

(Click the link above to view lyrics)

Many people claim to be living a happy life, but in actuality they are only hiding behind the walls of what they believe happiness should look like to others.

If we are living only on the outside, but dying on the inside, that kind of suffering can only remain undetected for so long.

When we try to paint our hearts red (full of love, God, goodness and purpose) but can’t even feel them beating in our chests, we set ourselves up for inevitable damage.

When our lives become more like lies then we need to be aware that God eventually will expect us to reveal our true colors.

If we do not get honest with ourselves and others willingly, God will most definitely allow circumstances in our lives to do it for us.

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“The white rose is the symbol of purity and innocence. However, if everyone were to be a white rose, none would truly be white. We grow, we make mistakes, and who doesn’t bleed nor have a scar? Painting the roses red is our cycle of life in all it’s mystery.
Everyday of life is another day towards deaths arms…Are you living or dying?
Reality: Life is the ONLY most contradicting phenomena ever.
How good of a painter are you?”- Philosophy by MKR

James 4:6 – God shows favor to the humble and oppressed

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The reason our faith grows grey and our hearts lose their beat is not because God has forgotten about us or because we are not useful to Him any longer.

Faith fades when we suffocate our spirit and live to serve our flesh.

If we lose hope in God then that means we have put too much of it in the world.

We cannot be two shades of ourselves in this life. If we are on fire for God and trust in His plans for us, the embers of that fire should burn brightly for the world to see!

If we refuse to be the color God needs us to be in a black and white world, we cannot be surprised when we are left feeling dull, inadequate, or bored while others beautifully color the pages.

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“The absence of flaw in beauty is itself a flaw.” -Havelock Ellis

God knows your heart, your desires, and your priorities.

He created us all with beautiful flaws, each of us a unique shade of who He is, and collectively we are breathtaking by His design.

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“Lean too much on the approval of people, and it becomes a bed of thorns.” -Tehyi Hsieh

If your heart is hurting, don’t paint a coat of denial over it thinking nobody will notice.

God knows what is underneath.

Be sure you remain true to what’s right; remain true to the truth.

Short cuts to happiness will only leave you with short term happiness.

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“Our deepest fear is not that we are inadequate. Our deepest fear is that we are powerful beyond measure. It is our light, not our darkness, that frightens us most. We ask ourselves, ‘Who am I to be brilliant, gorgeous, talented, and famous?’ Actually, who are you not to be? You are a child of God. Your playing small does not serve the world. There is nothing enlightened about shrinking so that people won’t feel insecure around you. We were born to make manifest the glory of God that is within us. It’s not just in some of us; it’s in all of us. And when we let our own light shine, we unconsciously give other people permission to do the same. As we are liberated from our own fear, our presence automatically liberates others.” -Maryanne Williamson

Do your best to present yourself to God as one approved, a worker who does not need to be ashamed and who correctly handles the word of truth. – 2 Timothy 2:15 (NIV)

While I Was Waiting


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Tonight was both one of the most amazing nights I have had in a long time as well as one of the most disturbing.
It all started this afternoon when I got the news that God has blessed me with yet another new job opportunity! I have been offered the position of house manager at a Christian drug and alcohol rehabilitation facility here in So Cal. The pay is significantly more than what I have been making this last year and I am now able to make a career out of encouraging others! Not only will I be mentoring clients in their recovery from addiction, but more importantly I will be helping them strengthen their walk with Jesus. I can humbly say it is a privilege to be able to do such intimate work for The Lord and only because I too have been where these clients are now.

As you all know, the whole foundation of my ministry/radio show is built upon the truth that only God can turn your mess into a beautiful message! He has done it for me once again this last few months.

My dads passing away last month has been the most heart breaking experience I have ever walked out. Thank God for my training up in faith or else I would never have had the ability to stand after such a blow to my spirit.

The death of our flesh is not the end of our lives, but rather the beginning of them. Jesus has conquered every thing that tries to keep us from Him including the grave. Death has lost it’s sting and I can find joy in Him. In truth.

But what about the ones who don’t know Jesus? Where do these people find hope when lost in despair?
What about those who think this life is all there is?
What about the ones the devil has convinced will never make it or that they couldn’t if they wanted to?

Well…
I have been wanting to see my favorite band, The Kooks, live in concert for years, but have never been able to afford tickets. My sister was able to get us cheap tickets a couple months back and blessed me with the opportunity to go see them tonight!

Needless to say the show was epic! For the first time since my dad passed away last month, I actually danced like no one was around, laughed along side my twin sister and good friend/room mate and whole heartedly enjoyed being amongst a big crowd of strangers.

While I was waiting for the show to start, I spent about an hour and a half out on the venue’s patio chatting with my sister and my friend.

In my life and in ministry, God often places me in large crowds of different people, but all of which suffer from the same type of spiritual warfare.

My experience on a night out can be very different than others and it usually is. Tonight was so exception.

A few random guys walked up and began talking to us about which band we came to see. The venue had different rooms for different artists so the crowd was… Colorful you could say….

These guys said they were seeing a rap artist called Brotha Lynch Hung…Apparently the hottest new rapper with a huge following.

I mentioned I had never heard of him and one guy began to tell me why I should listen to him and why he is the best rapper… (This list is real)
1) he raps about cannabalism
2) he raps about “crock rocks” – a combination of smoking bath salts and crack
3) he is a crack head
4) he is high on MDMA when performing
5) it’s not what he raps about, but it is what he raps about…
(Huh?)

As this guy is rambling on about this rappers “talent”, he then casually mentions that one time while high on bath salts someone had ate the face off someone.

I looked at him and asked him why canabalism and being a crack head were appealing to him and he said it’s just the new thing these days…. While wearing a rosary around his neck….
I grabbed it and asked him if Jesus meant anything to him or if he just sport the cross as a necklace? He said he was a Christian…. Or whatever. I nodded in utter disbelief then he walked away…

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Shortly after, another young guy asked us if had a lighter he could use to smoke his weed… I said no and suggested maybe he should just not smoke weed. He walked away, came back with a lighter and then blew weed smoke in my face. I asked him to take it elsewhere and that pot is lame contrary to what the “cool kids” are saying these days. He then got offended by my asking him to not smoke pot anywhere near me… He was offended…

This is our youth ladies and gentlemen.
They would rather medicate themselves with bath salts, eat each other’s faces and listen to songs about cannabalism than be accountable for anything that takes guts or application.

Jesus is the problem? Let’s purge Christianity/God and humility out of schools so you can make more room for this filth in your classrooms and venues?

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The utter lack of feeling anything for anyone but yourself is sick and it’s spreading like a plague. People are not dumb, they are worse.. They are numb.

All those who think they can run things better without God better Get a clue before anymore kids kill themselves on your watch.

Jesus brings life. We seek to mock it, mutilate it and eventually destroy it.

Just saying… This happened tonight. What happens tomorrow??

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It is Finished!


Jesus spoke these words, lifted up His eyes to heaven, and said: “Father, the hour has come. Glorify Your Son, that Your Son also may glorify You, “as You have given Him authority over all flesh, that He should give eternal life to as many as You have given Him. “And this is eternal life, that they may know You, the only true God, and Jesus Christ whom You have sent. “I have glorified You on the earth. I have finished the work which You have given Me to do. “And now, O Father, glorify Me together with Yourself, with the glory which I had with You before the world was (John 17:1 – 17:5 NKJV)

The Crucifixion of Jesus

But let all those rejoice who put their trust in You;
Let them ever shout for joy, because You defend them;
Let those also who love Your name
Be joyful in You. For You, O LORD, will bless the righteous;
With favor You will surround him as with a shield (Psalm 5:11 – 5:12 NKJV)

5 Truths About God’s Unconditional Love

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“God on our side, doubt not of victory.” -William Shakespeare

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“By yielding you may obtain victory.” -Ovid

“Father, I desire that they also whom You gave Me may be with Me where I am, that they may behold My glory which You have given Me; for You loved Me before the foundation of the world. (John 17:24 NKJV)

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“Defeat may serve as well as victory to shake the soul and let the glory out.” -Edwin Markham

When The Lord said “It is finished” I believe He meant it!

It Is Finished – John 19

No Fear


Join me live this Sunday, 6/8/14, at 3:30pm PST for an all episode of new My Message Radio!
This week’s show will surround the topic of overcoming fear, anxiety, insecurity, and overthinking in terms of romantic relationships.
Host, Erica DiCarlo, will be reading her post A Truth, A Reminder, A Victory from her blog My Message and taking live calls in the studio at 646-595-3870
Please visit My Message Radio for more details and to follow the station!
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A Silent Film


Be still, and know that I am God;
I will be exalted among the nations,
I will be exalted in the earth!
(Psalm 46:10 NKJV)

So many times we think we must say or do things in order to understand or hear God’s voice.

Silence is often the most effective means of both hearing and worshiping our Creator and simply observing nature in itself boldly testifies to His love and tender care for what He has created, ourselves included.

In a non stop world sometimes it’s necessary to JUST STOP. Let God show you who He is.

The video below plays a huge part in this message so I encourage you to stop, listen, and allow God to show you.

“Think not thy love to God merits God’s love to thee; His acceptance of thy duty crowns His own gifts in thee; man’s love to God is nothing but a faint reflection of God’s love to man.” -Francis Quarles

“My heart resembles the ocean; has storm, and ebb and flow; and many a beautiful pearl lies hid in its depths below.” -Heinrich Heine

“Say well or be still.” -Unknown

“The slender capacity of man’s heart cannot comprehend, much less utter, that unsearchable depth and burning zeal of God’s love towards us.” -Martin Luther

Chasing The Light


“Man is not born to solve the problems of the universe, but to find out what he has to do… within the limits of his comprehension.” -Johann Wolfgang Von Goethe

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Life has a way of kicking us when we are already down.
So many people are suffering in so many ways.
Whether we are sick, tired, stressed, lonely, lost or living in fear… all of us are searching.
We are all trying desperately to see the point in the midst of our pain.
We say to ourselves “There has to be more to all of this than the bills, the stress, the pills, and the tears”

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The truth is that there is a very real, very unique , and very powerful purpose for each and every one of our lives.
There is an order to the chaos, a remedy for all that ails us, and a light at the end of our long, dark hallways.

God is not absent when you feel like you are all alone. He is listening to you when you call out to Him, He loves you regardless of if you love Him back.

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The real question here is “Do you love Him back?”
Working in retail I see first hand the hundreds of people who are downright miserable.
I see people angry and greedy during this holiday season instead of being grateful or taking time to rest and be with their loved ones.
It has never been whether or not God is there for us, but rather are we even available to Him?
We cannot chase paper or people or status and expect to feel validated. We cannot choose to remain in our current circumstances and wonder why we have not progressed.
We cannot pretend we are in invincible yet negate the only One who is.

God loves you more than you can even try to understand.
Life is tough, but what exactly are you living for ?
If we settle for what the world offers, or fixate on what it takes away, then I would suppose that is why so many self medicate, walk around resentful or harbor ill will for its creator!

If we chase after the light of our lives, the source of our being, then we will find just that!
Are we really wanting that light or are we too lazy look for it?
If you are searching for the dark then I’m afraid it has already found you first!

Don’t give up your purpose on purpose.
Regardless of what life has become for you, with God you are unstoppable.
Pray for not just the things you want, but for the you that you want.

Don’t let your circumstances dictate your future. God is the only one with that power and we are fortunate to know that He loves us so much.

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When you feel overwhelmed or irritated it means you are spending too much time with the World and not enough time with God. Trust Him and step out of your comfort zone!

“A ship is safe in harbor, but that’s not what ships are for.” -William Shedd

Keep running after the light. You were born to shine like the stars are remember, no one is ever so far left that God cannot make them right.

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The Art of Letting Go & Letting God


My latest post is up! God has written your story, don’t get stuck on a page! Be blessed

The Art of Letting Go & Letting God.

Unstoppable – Show Your Light


And so we have the prophetic word confirmed, which you do well to heed as a light that shines in a dark place, until the day dawns and the morning star rises in your hearts (2 Peter 1:19 NKJV)

“Find something that you’re really interested in doing in your life. Pursue it, set goals, and commit yourself to excellence. Do the best you can.” -Chris Evert

How Odd- Everyone Has A “Truth”

All of us are driven by something. There is a reason we get up everyday and do our thing over and over and over. How interesting it is to hear what people say when asked what their something is. Some say money, others say success. I have had guys say women and women say finding the perfect man. It seems, however, the most common “somethings” are very much nothings. Things short lived or trival. Pretty much just thngs.
I used to be all about nothing. Paper chasing, boy crazed, and living for all the things that were in reality killling me slow. How empty my world was when it appeared to be full. I always had a group of friends around, a place to be, a job to do, a drug to take, and all the while I was at a dead stop on the freeway of life. I was driven by nothing and as a result I was going nowhere. I was miserable and started acting that way and all those things began to disappear.
God smacked some sense into me 8 yrs ago and asked me “You need your boat, you need your oars, but where exactly do you think you are rowing?” I panicked. He was right! I had nowhere to row and nothing to row back to. He forced me to get honest and as soon as I did, I got Him. The truth. The Light. The Way.
My life has never been the same since I made the decision to be honest with myself and with others. Now my drive is at light speed, no pun intended, and I live to tell others just how alive you can be if you allow the One who gave you life to be your something to live for!
With God as your source of purpose and your main priority you are UNSTOPPABLE. He will show you why you are His and all the other somethings you sought after will be added to you if they serve you well.
Truth. It is what we all search for. It is what we all stand for. God is truth. Once you become an unstoppable man/woman of God and receive the favor that comes with honoring Him above all else, you will never want for anything ever again. True story…. Just sayin.
Be honest, be unstoppable, be a light that shines for others.

I press toward the goal for the prize of the upward call of God in Christ Jesus. Therefore let us, as many as are mature, have this mind; and if in anything you think otherwise, God will reveal even this to you (Philippians 3:14 – 3:15 NKJV)

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